My Impossible Girl

Well, folks..... I'm married :) :) :)

I know, right? You're probably thinking, "We never thought this would happen! Never, EVER thought this would happen!" In fact...

I just had to add this in here ;)

When deciding about just how to write this post - one which I've alluded to for the past few actual posts   and have actually been writing since last year - there were lots of things that came to mind that I thought I might need to touch on. Namely, the wedding day, our relationship from beginning to now, the factors that brought us together, our hopes and dreams for the future, etc. However, I've come to realize that there are really only a few things that I really wanted to write about. Actually, just one. My wife :) If you would like to know how my wife and I met and the history of our relationship, I would love to refer you to my wife's account of our relationship and marriage. (I agree with every word she says :D) Otherewise, I would like to tell you the story of a cute, adorable, crazy, hilarious little girl who turned into a beautiful, courageous, wise, amazing young woman. Her name was Meagan :)

While telling you her life's story would take... Well, a lifetime (hehe), I wanted to mention this almost solely so I could show you this adorable picture. Look at her!!! Look at her beautiful hair, her adorable cheeks, and that cute smile, a perfect mix between radiant happiness and lurking mischievousness... Traits that she still shows today :) However, my personal favorite trait would be her eyes. Not only are they full of happiness and wonder, even at a young and tender age her eyes are strikingly piercing. They know truth when they see it, and they are always soul-searching the people she comes across to see what their needs are and how she can help. Those eyes are perhaps even more piercing today, as I know from personal experience :) From the time she was very little, she has always been cute and crazy and full of joy and happiness. Even now, she is still breathtakingly cute, still has a crazy streak, and still has a wonderful appreciation for the joys she finds and makes in her own life. She is wonderful, and I adore her. So very, very, very much :) :)

As she aged, she grew in knowledge and ability and wisdom and lots of other things that belong solely to the world of grownups. However, the thing that I most admire about her was how she grew in her love for her Savior. She grew a deep and profound testimony of the Lord Jesus Christ, and reflected her love for Him in her everyday life. She not only read His words through the scriptures, but feasted upon them, and pondered their meaning in her life. Even on those days when she was tired or couldn't find any meaning in the scriptures she read, she persisted and continued to read them - because of her faith in her Father in Heaven, that if she read she would come closer to Him. Recently she has mentioned that when the time comes that she passes from this life into the next, she hopes that the people who remain will remember her as a woman who loved God. Above everything else - a wonderful mother, a bright and happy friend and daughter, a talented artist and musician - she wanted her first priority to be someone who walked close to God. In my life I have been blessed to become acquainted or speak with a few men who are very close to God - my mission president, a couple apostles of the Lord Jesus Christ, a few Seventies (a witness of Jesus Christ like an apostle, but with a lesser realm of responsibility). All of those men drew you in with their very presence, and made you aware of the still whisperings of the Spirit communing with us all the time - if we would let Him. They all beckoned us to the Savior, and had patterned their lives after following His example and walking close to Him. So I hope you understand that I am not resorting to hyperbole or exaggerating when I say that my wife has one of the strongest spirits I've ever known. She walks close to God, and seeks above all to know His will and be able to do it. She prays for understanding of what He would have her do, and then lives her life in trying to fulfill her duty to God - out of her love for Him. Being close to her helps me to draw close to the Savior, and inspires me to want to be as close to Him as she is. She reflects the light of Christ in her life so clearly that others in her life - friends, family, others - can all testify of that as well. She has been a light for many other people, and especially been a light for me. I love her. 

Since we've been married, every day has been a blessing with her. Don't get me wrong, we haven't lived a life without pain or trials or suffering - not every day has been an absolutely wonderful day. But every day with her has been a blessing to me. She cleans, goes to work full-time and to school, comes home and makes dinner and cookies and plays games with me. She laughs at my jokes even when they're not very funny, and plays with me all the time. (We're going to be such good parents :) ) She listens to me intently when I tell her things that I am pretty sure are only interesting to me, but smiles and converses because she knows I love to talk to her. She holds my hand while we drive, and forgives me often for my poor/reckless/Jason Bourne driving tendencies. She randomly pulls me aside in our kitchen and starts dancing to imaginary music as she lays her head on my chest - something that I am very fond of. (And I think she does it because she knows it.) She makes cute little pictures and wonderful notes every day to express her love for me and her confidence in me. She plays with my hair when she curls up with me on the couch to watch movies together. She makes me laugh every day, and some days even every hour with her words, her actions, her playfulness and her happiness. She will sneak off to the laundry room to suddenly start a load because she knows if I see her I will try to help her. She holds me when I'm having a bad day or when I just need her - and she ALWAYS is able to just sense it, without me telling her anything. She knows my soul, and guides me, comforts me and ministers to me daily as I overcome inadequacies and personal weaknesses. She goes to the temple often with me, and plans with me and helps our marriage SOOO much. I love her with all my heart (and hearts ;) ), and am sooooooooo happy to be married to her for eternity. I love you sweetie :) :)

As I sit here and think about our life together, I marvel at how wonderful my life has been with her. It seems impossible to me that I could have found and married such an amazing, spiritual, beautiful, clever woman, and have her sealed to me for all eternity. And yet, it's almost impossible for me to imagine life without her. My wife does so many things for us, and is so selfless all the time. She is completely selfless, and lives her life trying to help others that she comes across. She is always friendly and caring, and so kind to everyone she meets. She loves her family and always has her priorities in the right places - God, then family, then everything else. She is always SOOO patient with my shortcomings, and communicates with me and is always open. She is 100% genuine and sincere, and doesn't fake anything to anyone - she is always herself. She knows who she is and she never tries to be anyone else - even though she is also very humble and unassuming. She has forged a righteous character from the furnaces of affliction in her life, and uses everything to draw herself closer to God. She loves me for who I am, and is always honest and has integrity. She loves me but also urges me to improve and change, and become the man I was meant to be - and without her, I'm not sure that I ever could be. She sacrifices her own desires and wants in order to put God and our marriage first. She is beyond words to describe. In fact... It's impossible to do so :) She is simply, my Meagan.  My wife. My impossible girl. :)

In Doctor Who, Clara is the girl who sacrifices herself to save the Doctor, who in turn rescues her. I think that even though my wife is better than Clara, it still is a cute way to represent our relationship :) She truly is my impossible girl - someone who impossibly does so many things and sacrifices herself for us. I love her so much :) :) :) :) :)

For further reference (and one of my favorite Doctor Who clips of all time), watch the video below to hear the Doctor call Clara "My impossible girl", as well as heart-wrenching hugs and theme music.

I love her so much. She is my everything. I have been so blessed to know her and be married to her. Though everything else around me may be as threatening and unsure as sailing in a hurricane, she is my rock and my pillar. She helps me be strong and brave, to be the hero I always hoped to be for my future wife. She is my everything :) I love her with all my hearts, and someday when we have many children and a few dogs and a house and loads and loads of Oreo ice cream.... I know I will love her so much more then than I do now. Because she is so wonderful :) And I know that even though we will still have hard times, and days that are so terrible we just hope to get through the day, every day will be a blessing as long as I have you :) And I really hope that our Morkie and Labrador Retriever get along, because that would be just great :) She is my best friend, my faithful companion, my impossible girl, and my wonderful wife. I hope I can always show her how much I love her.

I love you sweetie!!! Happy 8 months and 3 days!!! :)